I guess I begin at the beginning. About 15 years ago when I was married I decided to share my wife on her birthday. She was always telling me about these black men that would come to her place of business and how good looking they were. She had told me that when she was married before, that she had a friend with a big dick and how she regretted not fucking him. I have a small cock so about 2 weeks before her 40th birthday, I placed an add on CL and after about 20 responses, got a response from a 28 yo black guy who stated he was attracted to older white woman, but had been with one. He also had a 10 inch BBC. I contacted him, we met and set up the encounter. About 2 days before her birthday I decided to tell her what I had gotten her for her. She got so pissed at me and said she would do it but I would never have her again. On the big day she had gone shopping and bought the most sexy cloths she could find. When he showed up at the door, I met him at the door and proceeded to the LR were my wife was waiting. As hey left, she told me that he was good looking and that she was going to have the time of her life. Well we got divorced and they go married and had 3 kids.
Now to my situation. I ended up moving out and decided to act on my bi curiosity. For quite some time I had thought about getting fucked by a guy. I decided to act and placed an add on CL. After about a week I got up the nerve to respond to a response and set up the encounter for that night. He was Hispanic with a 6.5 thick cock and he was also gay. We layed in be naked for a while talking and he said he would go slow and teach me how to bottom. He also said that he could cum multiple times, but he came quick at first and wanted me to suck his cock. Now I guess I never thought that being a bottom that I would have to put a cock in my mouth. So I went done and started sucking him and really liked it. I quess that after about 5 minutes, he put his hands on the back of my head and held my head in place as he came in my mouth. That was the first time I swallowed. He then proceeded to slowly fuck me allowing me to get used to his cock. He fucked me a couple of times before he left. About 2 days later he called and wanted to go out, I said yes and we went to dinner and then to a gay bar for some drinks After some time, he said that he wanted to make love to me, I was cock hungry and said yes and then he leaned over and kissed me. Now I was not gay the or am I now because I am still attracted to woman. As of today we have been a couple and we both love each other and have had nothing less than a great life together. Well now back to were the beginning started. About 3 months ago we went to a party and he introduced me to his new coworker. He was 28 and a blk male. Uh, yes this was a nude only party for gay men. So over the next couple of weeks/months we saw a lot of his co worker. So about 2 weeks ago he was going out of town on business and had set me up with the blk male. He told me that his coworker was attracted to me and that he had noticed me checking out his penis which was about 9 inches. Isn't this starting to sound familiar. I wasn't mad and agreed to meet. So friday night we met and ended up in bed. I was pretty scared about him fucking me because He was so big and conveyed my feelings to him and he agreed to go slow. Well I am still sore from the pounding he gave me. Today he came over and we fucked again and he said that he wants to keep seeing me because he really attracted to me. Here in lies my dilemma. I love my partner, but now that I have had this BBC twice and the feelings he has for me and of course I love getting fucked by him. So what should I do? Should I end it and regret it later or continue to see him on the DL. An suggestions. Thanks

What do you want to do?

your the one to make the choice! think long and hard about both of them, size doesn't matter in this case, but the heart does.

Well, go for it, if you really love him, and love having sex with him. Size isn't what's important. It's about the caring and love you have as a gay couple. I am a white man, and my lover is black. My lover and I do all kinds of stuff, not just sucking and fucking. To be really into him, do all kinds of things, go to movies, shopping, traveling, restaurants, clubs, hobbies, find each others interests. Sex is great, however being gay is more than just sex. It's about companionship, and sharing. Oh yea, PS, my lover doesn't have a 9 inch dick, just average.

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